Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Day 23...

It has been one month to the day this all happened!! One month...I keep saying in my head because it seems so unreal to me! I feel like this month has flown by at the same time gone so slow...slow because I feel like I haven't seen my boys in forever, but fast because Grand is healing day by day in ways I would say are miraculous!
This experience has left me speechless in so many ways, the outpouring of love, and faith, the renewed, restored relationships, people REALLY talking to our Father....it moves me everyday, but yet there is this heartbreak and sadness I feel when I hear my husband say that he just wants to get up and walk by himself....it is not my legs that are missing, but I feel in some way they are. When he hurts, I hurt, when he cries, I cry, I am feeling his pain for him but it won't ever be the same as what he is feeling.
I know when they slow up on his drugs, it will be different...I cannot stand to be there when Physical therapy comes in to work with him because I know he is still in a lot of pain...he still has the feeding tube, picc lines, monitors, trachea and more hooked up..but when PT comes in, they work him, and he does it, and DOES NOT COMPLAIN, and DOES NOT GIVE UP...I love and admire his strength...some would just give up, but I think Grand knows he has a reason to live....I look up to him and love him more (which I didn't think was possible) than I EVER have before, and I know that one day that man will walk, run, box, do everything he loves to do!!!!

4 comments:

  1. Your faith in all this blows me away! Not because I didn't know it was there; but most of us don't ever have circumstances like this that allow our faith to SHINE!! I am proud of you. Praying every single day....love you both more than words can say!

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  2. Love your posts on here. I'm praying for you guys all the time and love seeing the updates. God indeed is AWESOME! Think how many lives your story and the example of true faith you show, is inspiring to new heights of their relationship with Christ. During the Olympics, there was a commercial and it started out showing a race where all the athletes were missing both legs and had the running prosthetics in place. MAN were they running fast! It made me think of Grand every time they showed it. It reminded me that legs can be replaced, he's still alive and his brain is still working and with that, everything else can be overcome. I couldn't even tell you what that commercial was about because that first image sent my mind to prayers for Grand to be one of those runners some day. God bless you all!

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